Last year…ohhhh, last year. What do I have to say? Let’s reflect a little bit shall we?
The beginning of 2016 was a really tough one. But we knew that already right? My mom’s health worsened shortly after her birthday on the 8th and she went to heaven on January 29. Most of the month of January was being by her side. It was as if the world stopped turning for me and the only thing that I could do was just sit with her. I couldn’t talk, I couldn’t eat, I couldn’t feel. I was just going through the motions.
Those feelings, truth be told, have lasted through the entire year of 2016. I tried to pretend to myself that I wasn’t sad, unmotivated, or lifeless. I felt like I blinked and 2016 was over. Nothing really happened. I didn’t really do anything. I didn’t really feel anything. I was just kind of numb.
A lot of great things happened last year too. All 3 of my businesses had growth last year, they grew enough to where I was able to hire Katie to help me with my day-to-day tasks, I am managing a growing team, I coached a few friends on starting their own small business, and Charlie and I became even closer than before.
But despite all those good things I was numb. I was grateful! But I was numb. I wasn’t present. I just did enough to get through life. I, in no way, was doing anything to improve or grow and that is very unlike me.
So now, let’s talk about the present. I’m done.
- I’m done being numb.
- I’m done thinking about the past in a way that only holds me back.
- I’m done running in place.
- I’m tired of feeling this way.
- I’m done making excuses.
- I’m done being unmotivated.
This year, we move forward.
I’m ready. I’m making myself ready. I’m going to create momentum by setting goals, dreaming the dreams, making it happen, feeling the feels, the whole 9 yards. At the end of 2016 I told myself that I was done with it all and I took steps to mentally prepare myself for the upcoming year. I’m going to choose things that make me happy, make choices that put me closer to a better me, work on loving the person I am at this very moment, and strive to make me a better version of myself every single day. I want to take a small step every day closer to being better.
Let’s stand tall together. Let’s do big things together. Let’s move forward together.
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