My dearest Raymond,
I can’t believe it’s been almost 1 year since you’ve moved on from this world. I miss you so much. I’m not sure if it was just me, but I thought it would get easier as time went on. I thought that time would help heal. But I was wrong. Time hasn’t healed, it hasn’t gotten easier. In fact, the saying, “Distance only makes the heart grow fonder” really is true. But Ray, the distance grows more and more. And I hate that. It makes me sad that I let myself get too busy to even have a moment to just be, reminisce, and remember. But lately, you’ve been in my mind every single second of every day. So many times I find myself in tears thinking about you.
Ray, I had a dream about your 1st Ray of Hope Benefit Kuya Jay threw for you. When you were on stage performing, you were a natural. All us girls were screaming at the top of our lungs for you! It was the most amazing thing to see you up there. The passion you have for things that you want to pursue is so inspirational. You continue to be an inspiration to us all, and we want to keep your loving spirit alive.
You’ve inspired your AMN family to continue your Ray of Hope Benefit the Friday before your 1 year anniversary. I’m so scared Ray. I’m so nervous and scared. I want this to benefit to be a success. We made a scary goal of
raising $10,000 for City of Hope. But I believe in this goal. I believe we can do it. But I’m so scared. I want this event to be a reflection of your positivity, passion, and love. I want it to be a chance for all your family and friends to reconnect to remember a time when your love bound us all together. I want to make a difference in lives just like you did. I just want to make you proud.
Help guide us, Ray. In a world like this, we need to remember your love and passion more than ever.